.wandering ballerina. - Day

6:23AM - Thinking again

Dago, i didn't know how to start my post so gagayahin na lang kita.
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There are two reasons why I am blogging right now.

1.) I'm thinking and being too objective again (which i certainly am)

2.) I've been up since 2:30 am (which really sucks)

I have to get ready for work in an hour but my spirit and thoughts are fleeting. I never really imagined that this whole relationship thing could be so difficult. It can get very very confusing especially when there innumberable things I cannot understand and comprehend.

I ask myself then wht makes a good relationship.

1.) honesty
2.) trust
3.) excellent communication
4.) attraction and connection

Have I been this? I take a step back and look and guilt consumes me. Only change can shatter me this much and make me vulnerable.

Does he even know? Does he understand what I'm going through?

I must resist. I must hold back for both our sakes